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THE PAINTER THAT NEVER PAINTS
The painter that never paintsUnfortunately many times in my life, i was acting as my friend ... the painter ... that painter that was never paintingIt was Paris ... about 4-5 years ago.Someone introduced me a lady, which was a painter ... a very smart lady ... a genius i could say and it was a pleasure to spent time with her.We became friends.We started to go out everyday to the amazing coffees shops from the central area ... the ones close to the Seine and we were talking for hours.She was telling me about her next paintings and was describing me in tiny details all the elements of the scenes.Had an amazing way of talking ... but also knew a lot aboutart.In few weeks ... me ... a guy that did not knew anything about art, started to understand what is the whole meaning of art in our lives.Soon i understand that she is not painting anymore, cause, for the moment, she does not have the necessary money for painting materials .... and right away i give her an amount that she could start again.I also promise her to not worry, cause i will give as much as she needs to continue her work.Few days later, i dare to ask her if she started to work on the paintings that she was telling me about ... and suddenly she became very annoyed.Not understanding what is really going on ... being a polite person ... i succeed to change the subject and we continued in a nice way our conversation while drinking the amazing parisian coffee, but few days later i ask her again the same question.Suddenly she changed her face and became so angry that i thought for a second that she wants to ... kill me.I could not understand what was wrong.I was asking a painter if she was started to paint ... cause now she had the money for the materials.Again i succeed to avoid the useless conflict with her, but going to her apartment, which was small like any parisian apartment ... i see no painting materials.In the end she tells me that the materials will come in few more days, cause it was a delay to her order, but also asks if i can give her some extra money, for another order also.I smile ... cause in Paris you find painting materials in the city center and she could buy them right away ... but i give her the money she asked for.Before leaving the apartment, in the last second ... i see drugs on the small table from the entrance.I smile again ... and understood she used the money to buy drugs instead of materials.I saw at her house about 15 paintings and indeed she was a great painter, but she was the painter that was actually never painted.I leave ... and i get mad.It was all a trap.I was fooled like a 5 years old kid by this lady and actually i was helping her to take drugs ... without realizing not even for a second what i am doing.She called me later on ... 100 times, but never answer her back.Even told me that she will go to the Police to make a complain against me ... but could not clearly understand why.One year later, i accidentally meet her near the Opera ... and she was pretending that she did not knew my name anymore.I smile ... we exchange 2-3 words and i leave.But one day, 2 years later ... i was meditating again over the subject for about 2 weeks.Something was unclear for me ... and did not knew what and why.I judged her too much ... but maybe i was also the painter that never paints ... many, many, many times in my life.My parents supported me to study at the University of Polytechnics ... but i was not going to courses and instead iwas losing my time in the coffee shops all day long.I was the student that never went to classes ... and i was doing same as the painter that was never painting.I complete University, i open a company and i had so many clients that sometimes i took money from my clients, spent them ... and forget to deliver the promised services to the clients.It was such a chaos at that time, that it was a total mess with the orders ... so ... i was doing what??!I was the businessman that promised to deliver some services that were never delivered.I was judging the painter ... but i was worst as her.The list with my silly mistakes from life ... was huge.I remember i read hundreds of books of personal growth ... and one day i even read a lot about management if conflicts ... and guess what i did next after i finished studying that subject?!I laugh ... while writing to you ... cause what i did was that i had more and more useless conflicts with the people from my life.So ... the best definition of myself could probably be the same as that silly lady ... the painter that never paints.
DOMINATING AND BEING DOMINATED ... a way of wasting our lives
Maybe life is too short to waste it with … useless things.Maybe it’s time to start meditating more.To analyze our behavior … but also the one of the people around us.To pay attention to the impact of influences over our lives … but also on the lives of others.Understand that … domination … no matter of its character… positive or negative …. It’s a concept that we should not allow it to become real.And we should also be aware of how a simple small influence … that is repeated on and on and on … could become … dominance …. without even realizing.
ONE DAY … ONE SOUL
Over the years i’ve been meeting lots of people ... which i the end ... i would like to call them ... souls.In fact i was dealing with thousands of them ... and i had moments when i’ve wondered myself ... why do i meet the whole spectrum of the human beings?!What is the message behind that?!What the Universe is trying to whisper to me?!But what i can say that it was funny ... was that i met people i liked, people i disliked, people that i liked and then i disliked and ... people i disliked and then i liked.The interactions were of so many different types ... that i almost started to believe that i am at school ... a school where i need to understand what the human being is.But i had to understand ... the whole spectrum of them ... no matter who they were.There were moments when i was almost forced to deal with certain prototypes of souls that i not even thought that exist.Yes ... i felt ... forced by the Universe ... to meet many of those persons ... but i knew it was a reason it was happening.I had events when I thought some people were trying to destroy me ... but at the end of those stories i had become a better and also stronger person.And i also met persons that i thought that they will somehow rebuild myself ... and ended the story with them almost ruined emotionally.But i realized one thing ... everything had a purpose ... to reveal me what life is about ... by having so many interconnections with the people from the world.Today ... same as always ... i still love socializing ... with everybody ... but i don’t judge the connections anymore.I see it as a ... life experience ... and in fact as a blessing in my evolution as a human being.I know that every human i met ... it’s just a reflection of my inner self.When i meet good people ... i need to pay attention at all those positive attributes i see ... but also keep them active as much as i can in my personality.And when ... i meet people i dislike ... i have the courage to admit that they are ... the reflection of that part of myself ... which in fact i dislike.But ... i admit that i still have moments when i believe in the illusion of life ... believe in the duality ... and that i am not wise enough.I continue to analyze and define everything i see on the timeline of my own life ... but also keep active the process of redefining myself.And i love being the witness of ... my life.
DEPRESSION … THE GATEWAY TO THE REAL HAPPINESS
Most probably … the worst disease of our times is … the depression.And … unfortunately we can see it everywhere … at many souls from the stage of our lives.But what i personally discovered is that depression is not really something … 100% negative.I see it today … more as an aggressive signal … which is whispering us that … we forgot to be … happy.Nothing more … nothing less …
PERCEPTIONS
It’s all just … a perceptionMe and Arij … try to define life.We do it … almost … as a hobby.We became without even realizing … what some people would define as … philosophers.But we feel more … just … ordinary persons … that simple can’t stop thinking of the meaning of life.Our own lives … but also of life in general.And all we write … it’s kind of a philosophical dance.A mix of perceptions …. very well synchronized.The perceptions of an … ordinary man … and the one of an amazing … young … feminine spirit.And the question that might come into your mind … could probably be … what it’s the purpose of this book?!Why did you bothered to write it?!Well … first of all … cause we love talking about philosophy … but also give the others the impulse of realizing anyone has the right and the power to talk about the existence of the human being.Starting the philosophical journey … talking about contradictory issues …. might be … weird … difficult … butalso … annoying.But time will pass … and continuing walking into this path … we get used …We start enjoying it …And then …. we believe … we found the absolute truth.I smile … cause i did that one million times.On and on … and on.Later … changing my perceptions … into a totally contradictory direction … i realized the illusion of all those thoughts and believes.Today … all i am doing with Arij … it’s almost for fun.It’s like we would tell you that we decided to go fishing and enjoy the day … but …. our hobby it’s not about fishing, but about … philosophy.It’s about a path … that we believe that will reveal us the meaning … of life.All we write about … are simple … perceptions.… our own perceptions… from a certain period of our lives.Nothing more …… nothing less.But … we continue doing it.Nobody could judge us … cause it’s all about a hobby of ours.And you all … have this fundamental right of analyzing and defining the world too.No one is allowed to … judge you.Express your self …Dare to do it … in silence or … very load.Even Kant’s ideas … or Rumi’s ideas … and all the other great thinkers … were just … perceptions.So ….Join us … on this philosophical path … and ….Who knows?!Maybe the real secrets will be revealed to you … quite soon.Much sooner as you might expect ….(Adrian Gabriel Dumitru)
KARMIC ENERGIES
Karmic stories … are ugly … or at least this is what we believe about them … but realizing we need to analyze and define their meaning very clear … and then try to redefine our inner self … it’s most probably a must.Karmic energies are real … even if we believe it or not … and it’s not easy to get rid of them.But we could start to accept that …. as part of life … and also as a spiritual journey … which we need to follow into this Universe.It might not make sense at all … but … the real truth is always revealed later …
THE DANCE OF OUR EMOTIONS IS A … NONSENSE … BUT A MAIN PART OF OUR LIVES
It is difficult to understand the human being ... but even worst ... it is even more difficult to understand our own souls.... our habits.... our desires.... our tendencies ... the ones we follow.Everything defines us ... from the past ... present and ... a possible future ... one that might appear in the way we want it to be.And when we start to analyze what is really going on with us ... but also understand that life is ... not just a collection of perceptions and emotions ... we start to keep wondering why the soul is always following so many contradictory directions.Why today we feel joy inside of the soul ... but tomorrow we feel so damm overwhelm by many negative energies ... from all around us ... that in the end makes us feel miserable …and the beautiful vibe is disappearing ... and never come back for long, long time.It’s funny cause the Universe does not want us to be unhappy, but to understand the illusion of life .... with everything that means ... problems, difficulties, hard situations etc ... but to realize that always ... at the end of the storm ... a beautiful sunny day is appearing.... and we should learn to enjoy it ... but we remain focused on the storm ... not seeing the beauty of the new sunny day.I smile seeing in the timeline of my life ... a dear friend that is keep repeating me everyday, almost as a mantra ... “It’s a new day! Let’s enjoy it!” ... and i am wondering is he smokes marihuana ... or i am totally blind ... not seeing the same reality he is watching at.Today ... what i know for sure is that my friend is not smoking anything ... but i haven’t the guts to accept my blindness ... and start treating myself.I see no difference between me and my friend ... but looking at him ... i can’t understand yet if he is still suffering of disease that i suffer by such a long time ... the dance of my emotions.I realized about this illness i have ... and i also realized ... studying the statistic that defines my life ... that my reality is just a reflection of all those feelings i carry in my soul.The short story is ... amazing vibes .... amazing life ... negative vibes ... a reality painted just in grey colors ... and nothing more.It’s quite a simple concept!But i continue staring at this silly dance of such contradictory emotions ... going to the left, then to the right ... then to the left again.The music itself ... is so damm boring ... but instead of pushing the stop button ... and end this dance forever ... i believe is a natural fact for the human being.And i accept it ... even if i should take the decision of creating the habit of connecting just to beautiful vibes ... the ones that makes me feel the joy of being alive.I suddenly realize that what i explained to my friend that it’s a beautiful dance of emotions ... is actually a collection of contradictory feelings that are ruining my life.The message of my friend was quite simple ... “It’s a new day ... let’s enjoy it!”.But maybe it was so damm simple that i did not considered it as being ... a good advise.This dance was controlling my life ... and even if i had the solution ... i was not taking any decision.I preferred to continue my life ... as a journey to lots of pathless paths ... not realizing that it is time to stop ... and ask the inner self ... “ What should i really do?! What is the path destined to me?! Which is the real direction i should follow” .... and maybe pray ... as this silly dance of annoying contradictory feelings to stop.And one day ... i started to finally think at the fact that i am not my emotions or my perceptions.My mind was playing around with me .... cause i never thought i should master my mind ... and not let the mind control myself.And the mind ... keeps generating all types of scenarios ... or perceptions ... then different types of emotions are appearing ... and many times contradictory ones ... amplified in a silly way ... and actually controlling my life.The truth is ... and i accepted that ... i had not become a master of my mind ... at least not yet ... but i started to desire as the dance ... to stop. And not just to stop now ... but stop forever.I don’t want to live like this anymore.I want a life connected ... only at the beauty of what life has to offer.So ... at least ... i have a dream.The one ... of getting rid of the non sense that was defining my life for years.Deep inside myself i realized it is a difficult change ... but once i’ve taken the decision ... and also keep it in mind as a powerful desire ... i am on the right path.I pay attention to everything ... to all the details that are influencing my perceptions and emotions ... analyzing ... defining ... as in the end to always redefine the script of my life ... and keep me connected to amazing vibes.
THE LITTLE BOSSES
Truth be told we don’t understand so well the world we live in.And it’s not that we suffer of an absence of intelligence… but because we don’t really have the ability to connect to the universe we are living in.We don’t understand the people that are around us.We can’t really understand their reactions …. their way of being … and in fact … almost nothing.We live in here by so, so many years … but …Well …. we don’t even understand ourselves either …In times of calmness all looks ok … but the second a very little change appears in the parameters that define our lives … something is activated inside of us and we start to be dominated by energies … came from nowhere …And we start to have all sorts of weird reactions.All it’s clear … and we can see it’s not our … usual behaviour … or our usual personality… but it’s weird … observing all those new reactions.We analyse … but can’t really understand what is going on.It’s most probably… a hidden side of our personality… but even if we are conscious of everything… we can’t understand what is really going on.… that’s maybe … the nice story … being conscious of some weird energies which are dominating our lives.And i call it a nice story .. cause once we succeed to calm down … this side of our personality … fades little by little.But many other energies are dominating our lives … and we are not even conscious of that.We become into the end … totally dominated by those energies … acting like entities… defined only and only by their obsessions.And we see so many examples like that near us ….People dominate by … alcohol.… or drugs.… or the desire of eating … even if they lost control of their weight.… or money.… or sex …… or work …The list of obsessions is … infinite.I look at the people from the stage of my life, but also at myself … and it’s like some little bosses are totally controlling life into one point.I personally became conscious of it.I know of their existence … and i’d love to define those weird entities that are dominating us … beyond the scene of reality.Don’t know if i’ll succeed … but i’ll try …
SPIRITUAL GARBAGE AND OUR ILLUSORY BLINDNESS
Today i would dare to define all our negative emotions as … spiritual garbage.We could speak about … sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, vulnerability, embarrassment, disappointment, and frustration … and many other issues … which bring a negative impact on our lives.After studying the people from the stage of my life, but also people which i never met in person … I’ve realized that many times the life itself … just sucks … because we allow to be connected and also be dominated… by lots of negative emotions.We accept … into our souls … ugly energies … which have a huge impact on us … on short and long term.And … we not even pay attention to those details.We ignore … the impact.We ignore that something which today looks so, so unimportant… sooner or later will have full control … on ourselves.Yes … truth be told … we are ignorants.We see this dance of contradictory emotions … that is actually controlling our lives … as normality.We not even dare to think of such a concept as …. spiritual garbage.But … you know why?!Cause … everyone … let us believe that this is … normal.And … yes … it’s normal to be surrounded… by garbage.That …. this is part of life.I smile in front of such perceptions.Then … i laugh of myself.I realize … how i’ve wasted my life … allowing myself to have inside myself an universe dominated … by negativity.And … changing all … became … just … a decision … but i was too coward to accept this ugly concept of … spiritual garbage.Even … if all was so, so obvious.
THE VIBE AMPLIFIER
Together with my friends Paul and Brian, talking about the philosophy of life and the paths that we should follow ... trying to find ideas for a beautiful reality ... we came to the conclusion that the human being needs kind of a vibe amplifier that should be around all the time.The 3 of us are now over 40 and even if many wrote me asking if Paul and Brian really exist or they are just my imaginary friends ... i smile each time when i read that question, understanding that the 2 of them are somehow my reflection ... of my thoughts, actions, desires and everything defines me.Paul is the one that came first with the weird idea of the ... vibe amplifier and even if me and Brian laughed of him when we heard his theory .... later on we saw that we are actually looking for the same thing .... in different other forms.Paul was practicing a form of a modern art ... admiring beautiful ladies and thought all his life that the right woman, carrying an amazing vibe when she is with you ... can make you have the greatest vibe that you could carry inside of your soul during this life time.I was believing in my businesses.More money i was making, more happier i was.Well ... until i realized that it was just an illusory path ... and the meaning of life, or at least of my life is not to make money.Brian was somewhere between me and Paul.He wanted money, ladies and everything could make him be happy ... even if he also realized the illusory meaning of it.But ... he always wanted ... the best.In fact we discussed a lot about the illusion of life and this chase for volatile reasons that would make us have an amazing vibe ... and we came up all the time with lots of weird ideas.This is how we started to analyze ... define and redefine the paths that we should follow in life so that life itself should become a beautiful journey.In the book “The vibe ... amplifier” we gonna talk about different ways of becoming ... happy, but also ways of keeping that happiness inside of your inner soul.So …. what if ... Paul’s theory with the vibe amplifier is true?!What if ... connected to the present moment ... but also being helped by something, or someone ... the beautiful vibe will be amplified and amazing beautiful feelings will overwhelm our souls?!What if this really works?!Should we pay attention to this theory?!Well ... if you are already a happy person ... you can ignore us.But ... maybe if your reality is not the way you wanted ... and you dreamed so much about it ... you can come and join us on this journey of finding the real path of a ... beautiful life.There will be many times when everything might look like a nonsense ... but we’ve always considered that part of life.We will try to do our best to find that path ... the real one and we’ll ask you from the early beginning to forgive us if from time to time we will also guide you to what we love to define as ... pathless paths.But you see ... life is a journey and we should not think so much as we do it ... at the final destination ... but enjoy the journey itself!
THINKING LIKE FREUD
Rule number 1 in … self therapy.Whatever happens …. happens for a reason …. but it’s never what it looks like.Even if we agree … or not.A very wise thing which i realised by the passing of time is that i should accept all what happens into my life … cause there are certainly things which i don’t clearly understand …. and most probably i won’t be able to do it so very soon.“Thinking like Freud” …. is a way of expressing my influence to the public … of following the path of a so called self therapy … and always keep in mind that we should analyse and define all related to our lives.But analyse … very, very deep.…. and define with honesty … all what is going on.Keep also in mind that all is a non ending process … that … one day … might help us to understand better who we are … but also why our lives looks like they look like.Of course …. not many have a psychologist diploma …. but we don’t need one … for having this process of healing our souls.Hell … no ….I don’t have such a diploma of psychologist either … and i’ll never bother to do something so that i could get one.All i know is that i have the right …. to speak to myself … but also whisper to the others that they should try to find the elements that influence their lives … and even dominate all around … in such a profound way … that in fact the whole scenario has nothing to do with what they really wanted.All becomes a story about seeing life … and mostly our lives from on million perspective.So … the final question remains … should we bother to do it?!Maybe yes …. maybe no …But if your life just sucks …. this process of self therapy … might be the right magic pill that you should test … for a better existence.And … yes … i believe it’s better than alcohol, drugs, gambling … and many other addiction that this life has to offer to us.
The art of playing around with the energies that surround us
I was meditating over a list of tips and tricks that could help us improve our lives ... and i think the main trick we should have in mindis just ... try to not control anything at all.Only play on the stage of our own lives ... and even being surroundedby so, so many energy forces ... we should embrace all of them ... no matter if they are positive and negative.We should somehow dance with those energies and enjoy the dance itself, which actually means accept everything happens, even if it happens for a reason difficult to be understood now.You see, we have lots of options in life, like live in society and interactwith it, no matter what that means ... live in society, but practice the solitude and avoid the interaction ... but also leave this world, go in a place where you can’t find anyone around and be just you with your inner self.For most of us, what really happens ... we live inside the society and even if we don’t want to interact with it ... we are somehow forced to do it ... to better understand the life lessons we have to learn during this life time.Trying to see this art of playing around with energies ... becomes a must and we can’t survive without it.And even if we don’t want to become artists .... it’s the only art the Universe is asking us to study.But ... connecting to people becomes many times really annoying.Indeed ... there will be times when the connection will give us joy, likein a love story or the relations we have with good friends or our children ... but there will be many, many occasions when the connections will just ... hurt us.So ... do we have a choice to decide when we should stop interacting?! Well ... being an art ... you will actually understand that in the process, using some tips and tricks that i will write about ... we can connect, disconnect and then re connect anytime we want.We should not be afraid of any kind of energy ... no matter if it is positive or negative energy ... cause all around us is just a reflection of our own souls.You just can’t be afraid of ... you.If we see beautiful things, events and situations in our present moment ... it means we are in good spiritual shape ... on the right frequency.If we somehow totally dislike and disagree everything around us ... it means ... something is wrong inside of the inner soul.I’ve read lots of books over the years and i was also meditating a lot over the meaning of life ... and all i can say today is that the trick for a beautiful life is just embrace reality, no matter how that is.And if you want to change something ... try to change in the inner world ... not the outside world.You will never be able to change the reflection from the mirror ... if you don’t change what is in front of the mirror.The art of dancing with the energies from our lives ... can be learnt just as you learn the art of dancing.Connect with the partner ... and the music ... and synchronize all the movements ... for a beautiful dance.