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Beyond the boundaries ... of the human being
"I have nothing to say ... and i am saying it"I am ... writing.Yes ... i keep writing.I keep .... expressing myself ... even if many of the things i write .. are actually a clear evidence of the ... nonsense ... which is dominating my whole existence.Yes ... i keep writing ... doing it as a self therapy ... which i need a lot.It's sort of a ... treatment.I do it everyday.Day ... by day.And days are passing ... then weeks ... then months ... but nothing improves.No ...Life still continues ... as a story about the nonsense into its absolute form.So ... i keep expressing myself ... having nothing to say ... but illusory expecting to receive important messages ... from my inner soul.Maybe ... all is an abstract tendency of going beyond the boundaries ... of my being.And ... i desperately try it.Expressing ...Expressing ...Expressing ...But ... not saying anything.Most probably ... i am still disconnected of the inner self.And ... no matter as much as i try ... nothing changes.I guess it's normal.I am an ordinary human being ... same as the others ... dominated by the nonsense ... without any real control on myself ... and ...Well ... life continues anyway.I also continue to write.I continue to express ... that "nothing" from inside of myself.Looking ... like uselessBut ... i am just doing my therapy sessions.On ... and on and on ...
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
Get rid of the stupid influences from your life. Get rid … of this stupid illusory dance of energies simple by connecting to the good vibes and disconnecting from the ugly ones. Take care of yourself. And be aware of the illusory dance of energies beyond reality. Finding out the secret of why reality looks the way it looks and what actually controls it … might be the key of finding the path to a beautiful life.
INSERT COIN
Having dreams is .... normal.We also see people having clear goals ... and it's quite interesting... looking like a more organised person which is dreaming.... on and on and on.And the truth is ... that the human being could be defined as a machine ... that is always coming up with new and new desires.I look into my past ... and i see myself saying in front of the Universe ... i want that and that ... and that.And ... i can't stop myself ... even if i know that same as Budha said ... the desire itself is the source of all the human pain.I smile realising how i've wasted my life chasing for on million contradictory desires.... but also honestly realising ... this is a non ending story.So ... starting a weird process of self therapy... analysing all those desires ... especially the ones that obsessed myself ... I've finally concluded that in fact ... i want more to "taste" those desires.It was like i loved Rolls Royce... and i wanted to drive such an amazing car ... but i did not really wanting to pay such a huge price for this car .... the maintenance ... the taxes …the insurance etc.In fact ... all i wanted was to ... drive it ... for a while ... and enjoy the sensation of doing it.And the list of similar desires ... was so damn long ...So ... i wanted that ... and that and that ... hoping in fact that ... i'll get some sensations... which will bring me nice vibes into my soul.But .... It was only one problem.I did not really wanted to ... pay the price.Almost ... for any of those desires which were dominating obsessively my existence.Time was passing ... and i was somehow ending all the time ... being sad and disappointed.... cause my desires did not became real.Not all of them ... but many.But ... i've also noticed with some of those weird desires which i had .... that they were not what I've imagined.It was indeed all ... illusory.I could simple try and test all ... simple paying a price ... like renting the Rolls ... and see if i really want such a car.It was not that i could afford it ... but i could try to taste it ... by paying a minimum price for that ... only to understand better if that was a good path to follow or not.I had to insert ... a coin.But i was not really ready to do it.Yes ... not even pay ... a vey little price for it.I was just dreaming ... so nicely pretending i have clear goals with my life ... but all i was doing was to allow being dominated by those illusory desires.And this moment when i've understood i have only 3 choices... my life changed.Firstly ... I could ... stop dreaming.Or i could pay the price of getting that desire ... and stop being so stupid ... believing that a great dream ... costs 2 pennies.Or ... i could simple .... "taste" a little bit that desire .... see if i really want it ... and then decide if i delete that obsession from my mind ... or not.So ... all was about ... insert coin ... paying the price for it ... or .... simply stop myself dreaming with my eyes opened... like an idiot.
THE ERA OF NONSENSE
Times had changed.All is different.People, society itself ... the way we connect with this world we are living in.Everything.And it is not that things are totally different than 1000 or maybe even 2000 years ago.Fortunately or unfortunately i see serious changes even than 20, 10 or i could even say 5 years ago.Personally for me is difficult to adapt to this new world.Extremely.First of all cause i am not dogmatic anymore.In fact, i even detest everything related to dogmatism.But what am i trying to say?!... without having that type of boringness a grandpa has.I guess ... my main concern is strictly related to the nonsense, cause ... yes ... i believe we really live into the era of the nonsense.Comparing to how things use to be ... it's not that we see a huge change ... but too many things look illogical.Really illogical.And i smile.In fact, i even laugh.I look around myself, seeing lots of princes and princesses.And even people daring to see themselves as kings and queens.Indeed an era, which is under the total domination of our egos.Yes ... that false self.Most probably that is the new reality and i need to accept it.I have to understand that the values of the human being had changed.Or at least ... for many, many of us.And it is so, so funny cause we believe that all we see is true.Maybe even try to be the same as them.Pay a lot of attention to how we dress.The brands, the style ... and all related with the look.Maybe accept that consuming of drugs is normal, allowing us to live a certain type of happiness which we can't live in normal circumstances.Using personal growth ... the techniques of affirmations and all related to that to make everyone believe that we really are into a certain way.I mean ... the best a human being can be.But ... i laugh when i see everyone believing into a certain type of superiority above anyone around.I laugh seeing simple people suffering so, so much of prince or princess syndrome.I laugh of their blindness.I laugh in front of such a nonsense.I see all that as a representation of a pathetic lifestyle.... but i will just define all as a nonsense.I try to stay disconnected of this new type of society.I try to not accept it as normality and actually reject its influences for my soul.But i continue writing.Analysing.Defining.Hoping that one day people will realise what is really the meaning of the concepts as ... illusion of life, illusion of the self ... and in fact all related with the term ... illusion.Avoiding to annoy too many of you, i try to write only of what i believe it is actually ... illogical.Cause i know that beyond the nonsense there is a very powerful message.One ... which we hided too much.And is late.Almost too late.
THINK … DEEPER
Have you even asked yourself why so many people in this world are living an unhappy life?!But what about you?!Are you a happy person ... or not?!And if not ... have you ever thought why?!Is just a simple question, same as you would ask yourself why you don’t know skying ... if you never took lessons for that?!You see ... truth be told ... in school we’ve learnt lots of things, including complicated math formulas, languages that we will never use in life, chemistry issues that will not serve us with nothing etc etc ... but no one ever bothered to teach us at least a short list with things to do .. for having a beautiful .. and why not ... an amazing life.I mean .. we can easily understand that we can’t paint if we haven’t learnt the art of painting, we can’t sing piano without a little bit of help came by a piano teacher etc etc ... but when it comes to life ... to our private lives in fact ... we simple can’t find the path for a non ending great story.There is always something that is ruining our vibes.We find ... lots of silly problems ... and we actually allow them to disturb us from staying on the right spiritual frequency ... and in fact ... enjoy life.But ... let me tell you the truth ... i did the same for years ... many, many years in a row.My life was kind of an emotional dance ... between good and bad vibes ... but i could not find a way of stopping it.I even named it ... in a silly way ... the dance of emotions.Until one day when i realized that this nonsense journey back and forth ... from good to bad energies ... was ruining my inner soul.I knew i had to stop it, but i felt i had no control over the process.It all looked like i was in a prison with invisible walls ... and i had no escape at all.I started to meditate.More and more.Understood that i need to look deeper ... why i have this silly balance of duality ... if i want a beautiful life.This is when i started to look deeper and deeper ... analyzing and defining my life from on million perspectives.In the end .. by talking to myself a lot, but also writing my thoughts ... i somehow became my own therapist.I invite you in a journey of discovering the way of thinking deeper ... what life is really about ... and how we can remove the negative elements from our timeline ... but also replace them with beautiful things that might bring us an existance fulfilled with eternal great vibes.
DISCONNECTING ... ... seen as un amazing trick for a beautiful life
Disconnect ... connect ... disconnect again ... re connect ... seen as a circle of life.I try to understand life.But ... it's probably an illusory desire.Most probably ... the real truth is that i want to know how can i totally disconnect from all what means negativity.Totally disconnect from .... unhappiness ... and all what makes me feel ... depressed..... my anger, my frustrations, my envy, my jealousy, my .... all this large spectrum of negative feelings and emotions.And ... i keep meditating.I keep ... exploring.I pretend i want to know what this universe is ... but all i want is to find out how i can be happy ... or at least eliminate this sadness from my soul.And more i analyse... more i feel that it is all about ... disconnecting.Cause .... yes ... i can't stop being angry if i don't disconnect from the reasons why ... i am angry.I can't stop myself be jealous ... if i don't disconnect from the reasons why i am jealous.I can't stop myself ... envy someone ... if i don't totally disconnect from that person.I can't stop being furious ... if I don't disconnect from the reasons why i am furious.But ... i am too illogical to be able to stop being dominated by ... sadness.Yes ... too illogical.I could simple keep in mind those ideas ... and the moment when i feel any negative vibe ... try to understand right away why i feel that ... and what i have to disconnect from.It is simple.But ... maybe too simple for an idiot as myself.Fortunately ... being my own therapist ... I continue this charade of pretending i am sort of a philosopher or psychologist … trying in find to find out the reasons of my unhappiness.And ... i keep analysing.More ... and more ...The funny thing is that ... today ... i trend to believe that a beautiful life is a lot related on the ability of being disconnected ... from negativity.Cause ... life itself is beautiful.So ... maybe i should become more conscious ... on the stage of life.Feel better ... the energies ... and be more selective ...
The weird hobby of being a lost soul … an amazing journey on beautiful pathless paths
Experiencing a path that takes us to nowhere … it’s not useless.We should understand and accept that not the destination is important … cause life has no real destination.…but what it is really important is maybe the experience itself.Good … bad … however it is … it all has the meaning to reveal to us the dance of energies beyond the scene of reality… making us aware that all is … energy.Into the end … maybe there is only one conclusion … but i hate saying it.Well … we could chose to connect just on the beautiful vibrations of life … and totally ignore negativity.But … we can’t.I … can’t …Maybe … i’ll never be able to do it.So … life continues …. revealing new and new experiences… and i still don’t really understand the energies ……. the amazing dance of energies.Looking … like a cocktail of …. elements … which induces us the illusion of the abstract.I smile … and i stop being annoyed.I allow to life to continue … and i finally accept that in fact … life would continue anyway … with or without my approval.And … all i have to do is just to experience it … with or without joy … even if i know that the only purpose is to evolve spiritually.So ….
The secret of a beautiful life ... is a lot related with the ability of managing the energies around ourselves
I had no idea about the fact that life is a lot related with the energies beyond ourselves.The ones generated by our ideas, thoughts, feelings ... and in fact all is in our heart ... or mind.I was not aware of the influences came from this side ... not even thinking for a second that soon ... all these energies will be metamorphosed into ... dominance.And i continued my life like that for years.... having no idea what the nonsense is.Believing ... it's real ...... and also that its appearance on the scene of life... it's normal.... us not being able to do anything against that.There were moments when i could actually see some of the ideas of why some things beyond reality influence so much the present moment .... but i was indeed ... blind.I was suffering of ... spiritual blindness.Time passed again ... and my life ... becoming kind of a nightmare ... i realised i need to change something.But what?!I had ... absolutely no idea.Well ... until ... thinking deeper and deeper ... and accepting the influences came from my thoughts and emotions .... but also that people around myself were having their own thoughts and emotions ... sometimes in total contradiction with my own ....All i had to do ... was to learn how i manage those energies ... so i finally accept that life is about the art of managing energies.... understanding them.... connecting and disconnecting from them ... but ...There was always ... a but.I was balancing between accepting and not accepting that ... even if i had to do it.In fact ... it was ... a must.I really had to learn this art of managing energies.... my own energies.... but also the ones generated by the ones from the scene of my life.And i had only 2 options.To continue allowing the nonsense to dominate my life ... or start to act like a magician ... that knows to metamorphose everything ... in whatever i would want.... but with good intentions!Well ... time passed again ... and my weird emotional dance ... kept dominating my being.I was believing and ... not believing.... allowing into this way ... as the nonsense to continue its role.On ... and on ... and on.
The princess syndrome
The contemporary woman ... no matter who she really is ... has a tremendous need of being treated as a princess.Understanding this fact ... is probably one of the most important rules into a relationship.I mean ... understanding and accepting it.On the other hand .... not realising this need ... is almost ... a catastrophe.The same person we loved ... and loved us so much ... into one point simple start to act with us ... horrible... being a bitch.And ... believing there is absolutely no explanation ... for such a change of behaviour ... we continue life together ... having a miserable existence ... but living with the illusory hope that all will be fine.Unfortunately ... the change never happens.All ... remains the same ... even if the beginning was ... maybe ... so, so beautiful.Yes ... a nonsense.Many men believe the same.Of course ... me too.The question is why the woman metamorphose herself into ... a bitch having the only purpose to make our experiences miserable?!Should we accept it?!I mean ... accept it as normality?!Or ... readapt?!Well .... as far as i've saw till now .... men simple replace the woman with another woman.... hoping into a better life ... but ... the real truth is that after a while all becomes the same.And ... again ... pretending we are idiots ... we ask the same question ... why?! Why?! Why?!So ... maybe ... the men ... do something wrong?!Most certainly ... yes.I would dare to say ... that we treat the woman so nice into the begging ... really making her believe she is a princess.But ... later on we change ... the attitude.The woman feels fooled ... betrayed.Being a bitch becomes ... just a reaction.... maybe a normal one.I would love to explore with all of you this need of the contemporary women.In fact ... this trend of being and feeling ... like a princess.Having in mind just one idea ... to enlighten all the men from this world ... of why relationships stop being what they used to be.
What do you want?!
We always want something.We always want ... what we don't have ... or maybe can't have.Or ... what can't belong to us.Saying "I want" ... is a lot related with the world of desires ... but carries lots of influences ... which we don't really know they exist.Rarely ... i dare to ask ... seeing myself doing lots of stupid things ... "What do i want?! What do i really want?!"And ... honestly speaking .... I can't really find a logical explanation ... in many of those occasions.I had times ... when I've promised myself that i will wake up ... and looking into the mirror ... seeing again that unhappy ugly face ... i will repeatedly ask myself ... again and again ... "What do i want?! What do i want?! What do i want?!".Today ... i trend to believe that this is the best question we can ask while realising it is time to understand us deeper.It is a very powerful question.I hated it ... for years .... believing i know what i want to say.And ... it was like that cause i always got what i wanted ... but ... i was never happy.I mean ... really happy.The expression of my face ... while looking into the mirror ... forced me repeat myself this question.On ... and on ... and on.Strongly ... believing that one day ... the answers will be revealed to me.I mean ... the real answers.Unfortunately .... I still had to continue my meditations ...Cause the answers ... were not satisfying me ...
DIRTY ENERGIES … SEEN AS REFLECTIONS
Defining the connection … that sometimes looked like illusory … i’ve realised it all became a concert … of complains.I’ve wrote a lot about … defining … and its importance so that we could have a beautiful existence.In fact i do believe … and that’s my main message that analysing and defining with honesty all we like and dislike … we could reach a point when we could actually redefine our lives … into a better way.And this theory could be available into any of the areas of our lives.In our careers, with our friends … and even into a love story.The only real problem is that in koi to one point …. defining and defining and defining too much … we come into a point when we actually look like people … which are non stop complaining.Yes … somehow all looks a lot with a … concert of complains.And we actually …. ruin all.One of the 2 partners will simple say … “I had enough … “.Today … i smile cause i’ve been into this position … on both sides … in many of the relationships i’ve been involved in.In business… in love … and any other area.So … all becoming ridiculous… we come now into the position of asking … what the hell we do … to be able to improve the connection without destroying it?!When is the best moment when we need to stop doing that?!Why we try to define on and on and on things which cannot be improved?!Can we actually accept that the relationship has its own limits?!Can we avoid being ridiculous… clearly being defined of our partners into that way?!Can we improve a relationship without a deep analysis and define with honesty all?!In fact my list of questions is even much, much longer … but into the end we need to somehow conclude … so …Most probably … all we define is about the dirty energies which we discover while interacting …. but we are never aware of the fact that all is maybe …. a reflection.Yes … a reflection.One that becomes clear while in deep connections… but we are not able to become aware of the fact that all we don’t like into the relationship… are parts of us that needs to be redefined.We should firstly analyse and define ourselves… and keep in mind that into a mirror we won’t be able to change the reflection…. unless we change.And …. It’s so damn simple …But .. what is funny …. is that even if we understand the theoretical concepts… on the stage of reality … we forget about all.So … we just complain.We don’t like that … or that …. or that etc etc…All looks indeed like a pathetic concert of illusory complains … which into the end simple ruins … the relationship itself.On and on …. and on.
Mr & Mrs FREUD
I've wrote many books about love ... being in love, but also hating the concept of love ... and even promised myself that i'll never do that again ... but ...Well ... into one point ... after publishing 20 books of love essays ... i've had a very serious discussion with myself and ...Yes ... i've said it again that i'll not write again about love ....But ... damn it ... i just loved the concept.I loved all related to .... love.And even if i knew that a love story is many times ... illusory ... and might ruin completely our souls ... destroying them forever ... I've continued to write my perceptions about the subject.The funny thing is that ... promising myself i'll never be again into a love story ... i've started to analyse the couples i saw on the stage of my life.And what was intriguing me the most was why a man and a woman ... even when the love between them is so damn obvious... still do stupid things ... which are actually ruining all?!Why if both of them are in love of each other .... what the hell could be the meaning of the non sense psychological games we are doing?!And even worst ... why do we see very intelligent people ... playing so, so stupid on that stage of a love story?Why do they need to do stupid things?!Why they jump from love to hate so easily?!Also ... why the hell ... even the ones knowing a lot about psychology ... don't do the right things?!And had many occasions to see people which I'll generally define as Mr and Mrs Freud ... practicing the nonsense into a love story .... on and on and on.The final question remains ... why?!I could not find a real answer... but i've dared to continue analysing and defining into my writings .... the subject.Into the end ... maybe i could declare that i don't really have a conclusion .... but i love to talk about love.The subject itself ... is intriguing my soul.So .... I went deeper and deeper into my essays... being obsessed of a hope similar with the one of ... touching the horizon line.It's maybe ... ridiculous ... but .. i give myself the freedom to suffer of this addiction.